Silent Apologies

For talking...
For touching...
For breathing...

I'm sorry...

For laughing...
For crying...
For lying...

I'm sorry...

I'm sorry for knowing how you feel...
I'm sorry for wanting to say my thoughts..
I'm sorry for the things I should have said...
Or shouldn't have said I must regret...

This...
I hate..
This feeling...

I'm sorry...

But I...
Can't...
Keep saying...

I'm sorry...

I'm always doing something wrong...
I'm always pushing you away...
I'm sorry that I can't stay with you...
My mind is broken, I'm ashamed...

Of me...
I hate...
Myself...

I'm sorry...

I want...
To be..
Put away...

I'm sorry...

I'm hurting from this life so brutal...
I'm trapped in a spiral of modesty...
I'm looking to you for your forgiveness...
So why are you looking away?